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…And I will make Him more beautiful…(Sh’mos 15:2)

When we crossed the Red Sea, we were singing, “Zeh kayli ve’anvayhu,” – “this is my G-d and I make Him more beautiful” – “Elokei avi,” – “the G-d of my father” – “va’aromemenhu,” - “and I will make him look high.” (Sh’mos 15:2)

What is it that we were singing? What do these words mean?

It's a very high thing to believe in the G-d of your father, but it's not necessarily beautiful. Beauty is when you really find G-d on your own, and right after that you connect to the G-d of your father. Once that happens, it's high and beautiful.

When they call out in heaven, forty days before a person is born, the male and female souls say, “Can you show me the other one?” They are showing the pure souls, but down here, in this world, they don't recognize each other. The beauty is hidden.. They say, “This is not my Yankele! This is not my Chanale!
This means that there is some kind of beauty that is produced in heaven.    

Do you know when we tasted this kind of beauty?

When we crossed the Red Sea, we said, “This is my G-d, and I will glorify Him” We suddenly saw that there are two kinds of beauty in the world.
There is one beauty that comes down from heaven and another one that is made by man.
The Ribbono Shel Olam makes us love each other so much that behind all the brokenness, behind all that we go through, we recognize each other…we see how beautiful we are.

There were times when I really could care less about religion... about anything. I was in such bad shape, I absolutely wanted to cut off my beard and become a dish washer in Texas! I thought to myself that I just want to get lost and forget the whole thing about religion, it's getting on my nerves. It was good for a certain time, just for a little while. But then I realized that this is what I really am, this is what it really is. So I don't think that my G-d is really the G-d of my father, but because of the G-d of my father, I found my own
 G-d

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A Torah I learned from Reb Shlomo:

If it is announced that 40 days before we are born who our future soulmates are, then how come it can sometimes take so long to find our soulmate?
 
It says you are shown your soulmate with a pure neshama, their true essence, when you are in Heaven, before you descend into this world. And sometimes a soul gets so "shmutzik" in this world, that it could take a long time to recognize it (having to peel away all the layers - "klipas") as the one you saw in its purity. That's what it means when we pray to be blessed to have "the eyes to see it."
 
This is what happened with the Red Sea when the Jews reached its shore at the time of the Exodus. All the way back in Bereishis, at the time of creation itself, G-d told the Red Sea that one day the Jews will come to the sea and made it promise that it will split for them and allow them to cross over it on dry land. The sea wanted to see what these Jews look like in order to know when the time came, so Hashem showed the sea what the Jews looked like, with their pure souls, But when the Jews came to the sea, the sea didn't split! The sea didn't recognize them  - after all, they were on the 49th level of tumah / impurity... they were "shmutzik"; so nothing happened. Then when Nachshon Ben Aminadav took the plunge so to speak, and jumped into the sea, it was like being immersed in a giant mikva, his neshama (soul) became "clean", and the sea was able to recognize that these are the Jews that it was supposed to split for. Sometimes, we need to immerse our souls very deep to become recognizable.

Good Shabbos!